One Hundred Reasons To Live (For Fantasia Barrino)

You sit on the floor in strangling silence
Feeling used up, with not much left to give
But, here in my heart, I will show you one hundred
Reasons to keep on, reasons to live;
First, are the notes
That escape from your throat
When you sing through your sorrows,
With grace you emote
Next, are the days
In this life you have left
So bursting with promise,
Like sparkling gems
Then there's your daughter,
Your beautiful girl,
She needs you to show her
The light in this world
There are hot cups of coffee
From dark, shiny beans,
And movies you love
With wonderful scenes,
Beautiful days
With hot sun in the sky
Questions from kids
Always wondering, "why?"
Soul-searching people
Who need those like you
To show them your talent
And make them feel new
Songs that make you
Feel like weeping with joy,
Buying your daughter her favorite new toy,
Black and white papers that tell you the news,
Jazzy club singers who sing you the blues,
Starry night skies that make you catch your breath
All of the shows that you have to play, yet,
The feeling of being upfront on the stage
To sing like a bird, let out of his cage,
Opening gifts from those that you love,
Writing new songs no one's ever thought of,
Sleeping on beds that feel just like clouds,
Sitting in silence, laughing out loud,
Helping out people who just need a hand,
Watching a boy grow into a man,
Knowing that you have a purpose in life,
Knowing you don't have to give up the fight
Hugging your mom, seeing her smile,
Knowing that you're an American idol,
Seeing old friends when it's been a long while,
Fresh, Autumn leaves scooped up in a pile,
Seeing the world, meeting your goals,
Steaming hot tea for when you're feeling cold,
Learning to trust, learning it's great
To get right back up when you fall on your face,
Learning to love who you are deep inside,
Seeing the ocean rush in at high tide,
Being with people who make you feel warm
Helping your daughter move into her dorm,
Summery days and hot, August nights,
Parties outside under twinkling lights,
Seeing an infant take his first breath,
Believing in magic, taking life's bets,
Swing-sets and treetops in lush, verdant parks,
Lampposts and rooftops with bright, singing larks,
Taking a bath after long, busy days,
Cold, rainy, Aprils and green, springing Mays,
Friends that you know like the back of your hand,
Swimming in oceans, walking on land,
Fresh, bulging fruit, hanging, plump, from a tree,
Juicy, green salads, ready to eat,
Making mistakes but then learning a lesson,
Feeling relaxed after far too much stressing,
Keeping your promises, growing each day,
Learning the way to be truly okay,
Driving on highways and blasting your songs,
Having true friends to dance, sing along,
Video cameras to make mem'ries stick,
Hot bowls of soup whenever you're sick,
People like me who wish you the best,
Big, comfy couches when you need a rest,
Hearing a song that gives you the chills,
Cracks of sunlight on white windowsills,
Painting your nails, finding your voice,
Gaining more insight from each messy choice,
People who start with a handshake "hello"
Then turn into family and help you to grow,
Cold cups of water on hot, scorching days,
Operas, museums, musicals, plays,
Poems like this that come from the heart,
Feeling in awe of a bold piece of art,
Reading good books, starting anew
Bouquets of flowers wrapped up just for you,
Finding the light after seeing the dark,
Learning to hit life right on the mark,
People all gathered 'round Thanksgiving feasts,
And, last but not least,
The fact that somewhere in a place up above,
A God watches over, a God full of love,
And after your time on this earth has gone past,
You'll find if you search for a Joy that will last,
You'll find it in Him, who will shine it in you,
Fantasia, there's so much to live for and do;
I pray that you'll look for this Joy and this Truth
I pray that you'll see all this world holds for you.

Worth It All

Somewhere far away you lay
Somewhere there you laugh and pray
And I am here, sometimes in bliss
But at times like this, in loneliness
I know you're there, and we will meet
I won't feel cold, I'll just feel heat
A glowing flame of love will burn
And from these lessons, I will learn
That even though at times I fall
I know that you are worth it all.

Make A Promise

(To Jesus Christ)
I always want to be there
As you are there for me
I want to make a promise
That I will always keep
I want to keep you close
For without you, I can't see
All the beauty in the world
All the good in me.

Insecurity

Insecurity
Is so absurd
So time-consuming,
Crazy
All the reasons
We make up
Are all corrupt
And lazy
And all that hours
That we waste
Staring at our
Changing faces
Eat away
Our precious time
Insecurity
Is such a lie.

Life-Savings

I've spent my life-savings
Of care and affection
On a sad, sullen boy
With a bad heart infection
And now I'm too drained
To glance at him so
I'm running away
And letting him go.

Duct Tape

What is my voice
But nothing to you?
You said that you care
But you know that's not true
So here is my duct tape
Here, cover my mouth
Turn up the music
So you'll drown me out
But please, in the future,
Don't ask what I think
Don't tell me you'll listen
Like a friend or a shrink
Just tell me the truth-
That you hear like you're deaf
And talking to you
Is wasting my breath.

To My Best Friend

Everything was soaked in rain
All my dreams were dripping wet
There was no way I could see
How I'd be happy just yet
But then I heard I'd see your face
And angels sang Amazing Grace
Because whenever you're with me
I am whole, I am free.

Lamb

I am no lion
I cannot roar
I am no eagle
I cannot soar
I am a lamb
A small, frightened thing
Trying to fly
Without any wings.

Music

I look around
And all I see
Are people full
Of empty dreams
Their eyes go blind
From fame-filled lights
And pockets stuffed
With cold money
What happened to
The melodies
That calmed my fears
And fed my dreams?
I hate this thought,
This dark machine
Music will never
Be that for me.