Haiku for October

Cool October nights
Swing-sets high and trampolines;
Indigo sky clouds.

Scared

Dedicated to a friend I have lost to drugs.

I'm scared to see your eyes again
I'm scared to see your face
I'm scared because my heart tells me
The friend I knew has gone away
I'm scared cause I see darkness
Surrounds you like a cloud
I'm scared that you fell in a hole
And don't know how you can get out
I'm scared to look you in the eye
I'm scared you won't be there

If I confessed I cried for you,
Would you even care?

I'm scared you won't remember
The times we talked and laughed
I'm scared for you cause people say
Your heart has now turned black
They say the days that you were good
Are now stuck in the past
I'm scared that once you're too far gone
There's no way to come back

So on this night I lie here
So soaked in grief and strife
I pray to God to be with you
And save you from your life.

Turquoise

Take a clumsy paintbrush
And lazily let
The brightest of colors
Streak on a wall;
Your mother will find
Your masterpiece
And shout that paint
Is solely for paper.

This is the way that we are-
So innocent and childish.

Take a starry night
And fight the perfect vantage point
Then sprinkle the sky
With shooting stars
And curl up with your closest friend
To watch a secret symphony
Play your favorite songs.

This is the way I feel
When you look at me;
So breathless and awestruck
And grasping for words.

Now take the fiercest ocean
And the smallest, frightened child
Then place the child upon the sand
And hear the way she cries and screams,
Watch the way
She runs in fear
Terrified to even touch
A tiny drop of turquoise water;

This is the way I feel
About love and all its' implications.

How To Love

Inspired by the video for the song by Lil Wayne.


All she wanted was
Love
The simplest of gifts
So precious, so fragile
Yet so elusive
With burdens on her shoulders
Too heavy now to lift
How did something free
Become so expensive?
And the people that she trusted,
The people she would see
As models of her future,
Guardians of destiny,
Were on a darkened path,
Sinister and cold
To even ask for love
Seem so foreign and so bold
And when your mother's mirror
Holds shadows of abuse
How do you find Wisdom?
How do you find Truth?
It hovers out of reach
Like the stars that hide above
When all your life
You've searched for
How to trust and
How to love.