Confetti

I am
Nervous
And I am
Scared
I try to be calm
Breathe in,
Breathe out
As I talk myself through this.
He really likes you
And he wants to be at your side
Just do this.
Dive in.
Hope, with outstretched arms
And smile so deep
In your lungs, in your toes
Feel something brilliant
Like scattered paper confetti
On a lush April day
Forget the pain
And scoff at your fears
FEEL this love
And let it be real...

Yet all I can feel
Is
Nothing.